There is one overwhelming thing I have to be grateful for, and it’s so huge that I’m not going to talk about anything else. You probably have an idea what I’m about to say….
Friday Gratitude: Support, Positive Feedback, Validation, Release and LOVE!
That’s a bit of mouthful, isn’t it? It all applies, trust me. Tuesday’s Depression Part Two post was unbelievably difficult for Andy and I to put together. It was tough hearing Andy’s answers to my questions, it was tough being my own editor and turning our conversation into something all of you would be interested in reading, and it was tough hitting that Publish button, because oh my lord, can you say scary?
I didn’t just put myself and my depression out there for all to see, I put Andy and our relationship out there, too. It was the most emotional, the most triggering post I’ve ever written and published. Immediately the next day, when I began to see how much of a response our interview-conversation-whathaveyou was generating (is STILL generating), my self-doubt kicked in. Fear? Yep, that too. Throw in some insecurity, anxiety, thoughts of Me? I generated this response? How could all these people be writing to me, thanking me, for our super personal conversation about wintertime struggles? And so on.
Let me say this: I didn’t ask Andy all those questions and cry through it because I wanted to be popular. I could never have predicted the outpouring of messages, comments, shares, tweets, likes, and views that came out of Tuesday’s post.Turns out, a lot of you can identify with feeling depressed. A lot of you shared the link with your partners and recommended it to friends. And several of you privately related the tough times you’ve gone through. I’m so grateful for your honesty and willingness to share your experiences with me (Of course, it’s double-sided: I’m grateful that we’re not alone, and I wish we didn’t have this pain in common). I’m also extremely thankful for the support and validation: I know that this post was worth publishing. I don’t have to feel embarrassed about how hard my depression is for Andy and I.
I’m humbled by the adjectives that have been thrown my way. Brave. Courageous. Strong.
You know what? My husband is brave, courageous, and strong, too. So are all of you, for fighting through every hard time in your life and coming out wiser because of it.
- Chris Gethard responds to a fan’s question about encouraging loved ones to seek help for depression.
- Sometimes You Have to Fight for Your Happy– a blog post I loved this week
- Intriguing article from The Independent: Scientists discover the molecule responsible for causing feelings of depression.
Even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth, “You owe Me.” Look what happens with a love like that, It lights the whole sky. –Hafiz